Tears

Well to start with my love is out of state working for the next 2 weeks, I have a very sick child (that we have no idea what is going on with) and I am shedding tears for something that is beyond my control, but bothers me just the same.

Dragon has worked overnight throughout the state during the week and came home on Friday, but never has he gone out of state and with plans to be gone this long. It's driving me nuts already and I still have 13 more days to go.

Dude is sick. He isn't wanting to eat, vomitting (only at night) and has watery stools that is just colored water. No fever and plays just fine, but is extremely tired and will just pass out with no warning dispite sleeping for the better part of the day and all night. His mom came and took him to the ER. Haven't heard anything yet, but it's only been about an hour and ER's are slow.

My tears, besides falling for Dude because I want him better and wish I knew how to do that, is for Prince. He is the youngest and last. The holidays are approaching and I can't help but to think of all of the people that the other children have that will buy for them and they can go spend some time with. Prince has no one outside of me and his daddy. My father lives in another state, but he doesn't even acknowledge Diva or me much less Prince. My siblings haven't said anything about him or even asked. No one claims him but me, his daddy and his siblings. I know that he has a lot of love flowing his way from us, but the other kids have so much more and it will be so hard to explain to him as he gets older why they can go stay with other people for weeks at a time in the summer and he is always stuck with mommy and daddy. I cry for him. I have since I was pregnant. Only my friends ask about him and show concern when something is amiss. My family doesn't even know that I'm alive much less the kids. Heck, sometimes I think that if I were to pass away or something that they would treat it like a brief rain storm. You know it came, can't remember what it did and don't bring it up in conversations. Wow. What an existance. Lol.
Well I have no idea how long they will be at the hospital but Ive got kids to get to school in the morning so I need to go get some shut eye no matter how little it may be.
See you later and have a great night.